Industry vs Inferiority - 6 to 12 yrs old

Children must master important social and academic skills. This is a period when the child compares him or herself with peers. If sufficiently industrious, children acquire the social and academic skills to feel self-assured. Failure to acquire these important attributes leads to feelings of inferiority.

But then again, according to Erikson, this happens to 6 to 12 yr olds. I'm 20. On the other hand, my case isn't exactly the same. The gist is there though.

Why do I feel so inferior lately?

I think my problem is more to my social skills. I find my ways in socializing a tad offensive at times. Hence here, I'd like to take the opportunity to apologize to those who were affected by them. Regrets have come upon my mind but I can't turn back time. All I can do is, offer you my sincere apologies. I'm very sorry.

This is why, at times I feel that I need to be isolated, so as to not cause further destruction. Well, this isn't the sole reason to my wanting to be isolated, that's a separate story there. Let's not go too in-depth with that one.

Back to my so-called confession. Inferiority isn't new to me ofcourse. It's just that, it's been so long since I felt this level of inferiority, that now, it just feels immensely out of place. Maybe, social security is what I seek. Just the knowledge of knowing that no one would be hurt by the uncouth sentences that my mouth lets out. And knowing that what I would say and thus my actions that follow through would be of benefit and not of threat.

I find myself nowadays, feeling more self-conscious and able to create an unfondness towards something or someone at a faster rate than in the past. In the past, these things don't really come to me. I find it hard to actually hate somebody. But now, my eyes seem to see more of the bad side than the good side. I find this rather unconventional, because it leads my heart to believing that the bad side is winning over the good side. And that's not good. Part of being a pessimist I guess.

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