Friday, January 21, 2005
I thought that I wasn't gonna blog today..But..I was wrong.. Cause.. I have to..
This post is dedicated to my Nenedamit.. whom has passed on about a couple of hours ago.
Al-fatihah..
Nenedamit.. sigh.. I love him. He's one of my grannies whom I just love to look at. Y? because of his smile..I still remember.. the day Nenetanun (His older sis- my dad's mom) died.. I was with my cousins.. And one of them asked me to read Al-fatihah to a bean, which will later on be planted at the grave (i think..).. At that time.. Nenedamit just got out of the toilet. And he just stopped and just stood there.. gazing at me reciting. I looked up, and he smiled. I can't recall wat he said though.. From then on, I just love looking at him. He has a very generous smile. Just lyk my Nektang(NekPan's(my mom's dad) Sis) whom has also passed on. I even remember suggesting to my dad to hook them up *chuckles*. Both has such wonderful smiles and wheneva I see them, I will see those smiles. Everytime. Now, I've lost them both. Sigh..but.. their smiles.. wud always be in my heart. Im gonna miss that smile. I really will.
Its a wonder how a smile can just light up ur day. Never underestimate the power of a smile.
The funeral will take place tomorrow morning. I don't know yet whether ill be going or not. It depends on my parents, if they want to take me. I want to go. But im scared to.. scared to see the sad faces.. scared to shed a tear.
This kinda reminds me of a friend whom i think shud not be mentioned here (in case ia mengamuk..hehe).. I asked him once about funerals, and he told me, that he doesn't cry on funerals. That he feels that its just a common thing.. cause everyone will go thru that. True.. I agree.. but, oh...ur only left with memories..I wonder how he does that. It's tough to not miss ppl.
And u noe wat.. nenedamit died on kira the day after hari raya korban, same as nenetanun.. years ago...
And noe wat.. those were my nenes that im ok ok with.. Nenetanun.. one who used to play games with me.. She died when i was 10.Neknau.. one who wud always nasihati me.. and kinda visits me.. in my dreams ( i wonder y..) She died when I was 15.. Nekpan, atu, all i remembered about him was his funeral and masa ia kipak my lil bro. He died when I was 5.My dad's dad.. atu lagitia.. he died while my dad was still lam perut. Nektang.. had fun with her on my sis kah bro's wedding tu.. and ada masatu, ia di hospital, kana tahan, just woke up, and she still smiled..She died last yr. NeneDamit.. very penagur.. very baik.. penuh dgn senyuman. One thing about NeneDamit and Nektang is dat, i don think they ever did remember my who i am exactly.. but that doesnt matter.. they noe me vaguely lah.. except asal aku ada.. they asked lah..ani yg mana?ani sapa.. but its ok.. i really don mind..its common. But that smile. Haha.. malar jua ku sebut sal smile ani.. boring kali kamu.. but.. ohh..im really gonna miss dat.. *sniffs*..
Oh yeah.. if ur wondering why my neneks names pelik-pelik.. its because.. ada hidden meaning..ehehehe..
NeneTanun- Sal ia menanun..
NekTang- Namanya Bintang.. and that suits her best.. her smile can light up my sky.
NekNau and NekPan - atu.. i don really noe.. but i think its sal nicknames durang kali, taulah org Tutong. maybe lah.
Ok.. dats all for now..turns out this post wasnt just for NeneDamit.. but also for my other Nenes that i noe of (i sound bad there..dont i? but i cant help it.. the others i think died either before im old enuf to noe, or before i was born) oh and some others..im not really aware whether durang really adi-beradi my nenes.. Hehe.. oh god.. i really sound bad there..
Urgh.. i better leave it as that..
Semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat. Amin!
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